Heartbreaking Moment, I'm Sorry

Assalamualaikum and Good night to all of you.
I am really hoping that you guys had a really great night with your family and friends. So, this sort of a heart breaking night for me. Yeahh, let's speak Malay! Hahahaha

Honestly, I feel really sad because I just LOST MY FULL MANUSCRIPT. Yes, segala cerpen, novel dan apa saja hasil karya saya, semuanya dah hilang. Not technically lost, tapi kalau dah tak boleh nak di dapatkan balik, maknanya hilanglah, kan ?

So whenever people asked me about how I feel, for sure I am sad. Still in the blues. For me, novel dan cerpen itu semua dah macam separuh daripada jiwa saya. I pour my soul and heart on it. Tapi dah nak hilang, nak buat macam mana, kan ? Semuanya berpunca daripada lappy yang dah 'mati' CPUnya. Bukan salah saya CPU tu rosak, tapi salahkan company yang buat lappy tu. Arghhhh! (smirk) Well, sangat genius marketing diorang. Seriously. I have my own reason why says so.

And a very million sorry to those who've been waiting for me to continue with my latest update for my novel, Le' Charmer and short stories. It is not that saya malas, it just saya dah hilang 'benda' tu. Untuk saya type balik semuanya dari awal TAK MUDAH. Memang cerita tu saya yang buat, tapi saya takdalah hafal segala yang saya dah type. Lagipula saya ni menaip secara spontan. So memang tak teringatlah. Well, terkilanlah sebab hilang apa yang saya dah usahakan sendiri dengan sepenuh kudrat dan titik peluh saya. Orang ingat being a writer is easy, the fact is IT IS NO.

What I need now is strength. And support from all of you, my lovely and kind readers and fellow friends :)
Bukan kata manis yang saya harapkan, cukuplah sekadar doa. Sebab doa itu walaupun sepatah, besar manfaatnya.





P/S : Thanks to my newly-known friend, Alia Nur Syafika for the kind words. Nice to know you, friend. Also not to forget, to all my newly-known sisters from CB. It's a very good pleasure to know each one of you professionally and personally. So many names to be listed. So I'm just gonna list down those who crosses my mind at this heart breaking moment. (Emotionally unstable)
Thanks to Illi for being a good sister. Haha. Syathirah, Aina Nabila, Siti, Nadia, Isyaa, Yuki, and soooooo many more. Thank you girls! Sorry if ada yang saya terlupa nak list kan namanya. And for the gentlemen, there are few that I know, Talking Lizard and Ray. Yang lain I can't recall. Sorry! Typing dalam keadaan mamai memang macam inilah jadinya.

* Listening to Paradise by Coldplay. Loving the lyric. Freedom. Rare.

"Dialah yang telah mentakdirkan adanya mati dan hidup untuk menguji dan menzahirkan keadaan kamu. Siapakah di antara kamu yang lebih baik amalnya dan Dia Maha Berkuasa untuk membalas amalan kamu, lagi Maha Pengampun bagi orang-orang yang bertaubat."
   - Al Mulk, ayat 2

Lot of Love,
Andrea